Maybe is my turning 30 soon. Or maybe the 30s are turning me (around). Maybe I just closed a huge era of my life and I need to find a new purpose. Maybe I need to be patient and grateful that I have come so far, and believe that I have come this far only to remember that I am always starting over. Maybe I need to start over, even if I don't know where or how to do it. Maybe this is one of those times in life when all I can do is to be and feel lost; and to let disorientation sink me, send me to the very bottom. Maybe at rock bottom is where I will realize that if it can't get worse, then it might get better. So here I am: waiting to hit rock bottom, hoping it will happen soon. Maybe I'm looking forward to start again.